She said "I want you but not this and not now"
he just sat back and laughed
as his tears fell to the ground
"I'm okay" he claimed "just watch and you'll see..
a few years your mind will rewind have you back at me"
"actually there's somebody else"
her face carried a smirk
but her vocal tone sounded like fear and doubt
"fine I'll just get off this couch and head outside"
15 minutes man she made up her mind
she smoking on a cigarette sitting on the front steps
he's wondering why she stayed so long at this function
production was lacking and so was the acting
when the show ends why does he start relapsing
don't know
and being stoned doesn't bring the answers
so he takes another shot and he puffs away on cancer
clouds of smoke mixed with the smell of hopelessness
he can't stand it here
he doesn't even know who's home it is
hitting the ground was hard
and too violent for his own good
he wants to disappear
puts on his headphones and his hood
blending in with the color by numbers painting
tried to be the tower of strength
but his foundation is waining
tired of explaining
cause his patience gets shorter as life does
he walks around head in the cloud a slight buzz
from the dubs and 8tracks he puffs on a blunt
and he remembers when he used to save that
now it just goes fast
He wants to be sober but it's hard to hold back
kodak memories of laughter
quick time clips of smiles
tear drops streaming cause the gleam in her eyes
is just another picture on file
no GPS can ever point to where home is
only cause she rest her pretty head in someone else's warm bed
so he sits flipping through the old pics
insisting that his heart is dead the fact that he's breathing
must be a magic trick
stand sit then kneel like the catholic church
he didn't pray when it was good
he won't call when it hurts
but the pressure in his chest has the veins in his neck about to burst
and he wanted to move on first
but the thirst for the water proves he has something else to learn
he mistook dreams for life with no where else to turn
so he takes the batteries out of the fire alarm just to sleep while the house burns

you're a
thorn in my side the stars in my night
the absence of my heart beat
the twinkle in my eye
the reason to rise a reason to climb
the reason why I built these walls so high
you're a
thorn in my side the stars in my night
the absence of my heart beat
the twinkle in my eye
the reason to rise a reason to climb
the reason why I built these walls so high

still here no pen using the quill that's in my mind
can't put the ink to the page I'd lose it if I tried
some days I try to find a safe place to hide
and other times I'm laying on my back looking at the sky
where are you?
is someone loving you tonight?
my star you are the sunshine of my life
my head hurts and my chest gets tight
stomach flip heart thinking shit something just ain't right

you're a
thorn in my side the stars in my night
the absence of my heart beat
the twinkle in my eye
the reason to rise a reason to climb
the reason why I built these walls so high
you're a
thorn in my side the stars in my night
the absence of my heart beat
the twinkle in my eye
the reason to rise a reason to climb
the reason why I built these walls so high